I don’t know why I care so much, you are someone that I have never nor will ever meet. But I feel this urge to keep reaching out to you. I see that you are now in treatment AGAIN. The recent events with Lamar have brought about some kind of feelings in you, probably “I don’t want to end up like Lamar.” Which is good, like I said in my earlier letter to you, you don’t want to be in the news like Lamar, you don’t want your lasting memory to be of you lying helpless on the floor with vomit overflowing from your mouth. Is that how you want your children to remember you? Do you want your legacy to be “He died in a brothel after choking on his own vomit”, or do you want it to be for turning your life around and showing your children that in the face of adversity, you turned your life around, for you. Do it for you, so that you can give your children the best possible life they can have. Trust me, I am the daughter of addicts and the stigma attached to that is the hardest thing to distance yourself from.
I am guilty of watching an occasional episode of KUWTK’s. I have become intrigued with you, and your actions. I watch as you constantly put your life, and the lives of others in danger by your adolescent behavior. There comes a time in everyone’s lives, that they must stop acting like a child, and grow up. The time for you to do so is NOW. Scott, you have children, and a significant other to consider. They say the first step in becoming sober it to admit you have a problem. Have you ever truly looked yourself in the eyes and told yourself that you have a problem? If not, do so. Find a mirror, stand in front of it and tell yourself you have a problem. Admit to yourself, that you need help, that you can not and will not do this alone. Scott, you are not alone! It may seem that you are alone, but you are not alone.
I don’t know much about your life prior to being swept up into the Kardashian world, nor do I pretend to. All I know is what I see of you from TV, news, and magazines. I watched an episode where someone in the Kardashian family chalked your excessive drinking and drug usage to your parents dying. Though the untimely deaths of your parents may have exacerbated your usage, it is not the cause of your initial addiction. I believe you will never be able to get fully clean and sober unless the people around you stop enabling you and you stop making personal appearances at clubs. I am not saying that you need to end all public appearances forever. I am suggesting that take a break from the limelight and self reflect. How old were you when you first took a drink or popped a pill? Where were you when this happened? Was there something going on in your life at the time? You need to get healthy, not just for you, but for your kids. Don’t do it for Kourtney, do it for YOU first. You are number 1. Your children are number 2, Kourtney should be the least of your worries. Do you even want to get clean? Take the time to self reflect, get healthy mind, body and soul. Find out what your triggers are, and when you are able to control those impulses, then go back to public appearances. You need to take someone with you that will keep you accountable for your actions.
You can check yourself into all of the rehab facilities in the world, but they will not help you if you don’t want it. You NEED it!! When I watch you destroy not only your life, but lives of others around you by your addiciton, it breaks my heart. When I see you on TV, you appear to be someone who over compensates for the lack of self worth that you feel by your constant antics. You are constantly seeking attention, good and bad. You are ultimately getting positive reinforcement from those around you from bad behavior. I also see that you think you don’t deserve to get help, that your aren’t worth someone’s trouble. Well, you are WORTH IT. You are worth it to your children, and your are worth it to your family in heaven.
You are now the father to 3 beautiful children. Imagine yourself in their shoes, growing up with a father who is always in the news. Do you want them to grow up being the children of someone that is always in the news for something they are ashamed of, or do you want them to be the children of a father that is in the news for something STELLAR? Make your children proud to call you their dad. Don’t make them grow up wishing they were someone else.
Get the help you deserve and need. You can do this, I know you can.
With warmest of well wishes,
~ Me ~